Thursday, November 27, 2008 , 11/27/2008 08:17:00 PM

This post may sound emo and stuff but whatever.

I always watch American sitcoms or drama serials or whatever, and the lead or whoever always has a BFF 24/7 standby on the phone, always there to listen to their woes and weals. Honestly, I envy them. You may think, hello, it's a drama, for Pete's sake! but I known ppl to really share that rare and close relationship eg KoekChing and Serene.

I yearn to have a friend like that. To know my current feelings, and not to berate me if I done something wrong. No, I dun expect them to lie and say it's not your fault at all, it's __________ fault etc. I just want them to hold me in their arms. Even if they don't utter a single syllable, I won't mind.

Seriously, since holidays started, I started having lots of mood swings EVERY day. And I always find myself, pressing the key on my handphone, searching for a contact on my phone, someone who would definitely be there when I phone them. But the results are always NIL. I just gave up, and went back doing nothing, or staring at the TV screen or computer screen, or even sleep. How mundane my life is.

"not free"
"cannot talk"
"phone confiscated"

I'm sick and tired of hearing the same old stuff, I just give up keying in numbers and hearing the phone ring, with no one picking up or giving the same old excuse.

And I seriously dun get it why SHE's afraid of me and not the other person who evidently is more ____ and______ than me. Sorry if I was too loud, but my voice is like that.

And I'm really getting annoyed, and if this continues, I don't even think I would bother to talk to her.

No ONE UNDERSTANDS.

I think the only person I've been in recent contact with and doesn't make me feel unhappy is JJ. Maybe she's not that all sensitive to others' feelings at times, but she made me feel well, happier.