Thursday, February 26, 2009 , 2/26/2009 07:59:00 PM

⇨Stressed. Troubles.

Been real unhappy these few days. And I feel really suffocated from worrying and thinking about stuff.Studies, CCA, and lot others.

Dad just had his operation, cause he fractured his hand while riding bike on sunday. And I gotta wake @ 5.45 am every morning. Almost died.

I took some real spastic photos of myself, with the oxygen tube attached, lying on the hospital bed. It was really damn cool. I'm weird o.O

Sharon, jiayou for tmr's CL Essay Competition!


What's wrong with me? Why can't I just be content? Why can't I be that good, that smart? My tone isn't there, my articulation is omg eew. I really suck. And my academic results aren't that better either. I keep losing out to others. And my competitive nature won't let that rest, gnawing me on the insides. I'm really miserable... And, thanks for not trusting me. I finally understand and I guess thanks for not sayig it out straight to spare my feelings. Cause I have a strong pride so realising it this way is probably the best.There has always been a huge gap between us called doubt and I've always ignored its existence. It was only yesterday I was so acutely aware of it. And it didn't hurt that much cause I was too numb.

Sorry HuiMin cause of today's sectionals. I'll make it up by going back for more self prac and helping you out by teaching the sec1s.

"We Are the Reason" on my playlist... It's very touching.