Saturday, July 25, 2009 , 7/25/2009 06:41:00 PM

Aren't my hints obvious enough? I really don't want to hurt you and tell you straight in your face, especially seeing this is one of your toughest periods. I really wish to be there for you... but I'm sorry. I can't. You're no longer the person I once knew and once treasured. And when I needed you most, you weren't there. Not even a trace of you. Not even physically. And no matter how many times you say, those words aren't true. they're just words written in black ink. and on paper. Or even blank words that didn't come from your heart. I don't see any hope in our friendship anymore. Maybe acquaintances. But that's as far as it can go.

It may be I'm the one who caused this drift. Or maybe you. I don't know. I really want to push the blame all on you but ya. This gap, this hole was created by the both of us. We each have our equal parts in causing it.

People change and I know I did.

But honestly, I don't know whether are you that oblivious to the hints or you just want to desperately hold on and pretend that our friendship is still there. If it's the latter, it's too late. The cracks have long appeared, over 8 months. And over the weeks, it just got bigger. Until the state it is today.

I'm not that good a friend. I can be too carried away with my words at times, suan ppl til overboard and a tad too competitive. I know that of myself. That's why if anyone seeing this and I have offended you before, or made you bitter/angry, I'm really sorry for being so insensitive and all.

So, I really hope you can just move on, look around and patch up and fill up the cracks in friendships that are able to be resolved.

And no, don't try to confront me. Maybe I'm too cowardly that the words that fall out of my mouth then would be totally fake, but the true words hurt. I've know you that long to understand that of you.