Friday, August 14, 2009 , 8/14/2009 10:28:00 PM

⇨comprehension&maturing

Life is all about figuring complex emotions of others, trying to understand the meaning all behind it isn't it?

I'm lost.&confused. I'm no longer sure of myself. Like why do I always have a surge of jealousy if I knew someone I really really don't like and didn't expect much from that person actually does something better than me. I hate that part of me. But whatever kay.

Anyway, I'm thinking that my future's really bleak right now cause honestly I don't know what I want. And my results are like sliding now. great.

On a drama craze about Fated to Love You now. It's the only thing, besides Bleach, that keeps my mind and thoughts from wandering to those really depressing stuff.

Edit:

great. now I'm starting to regret not actually doing that, considering I have a damn high chance of getting it. But then if I did get it, I won't be able to give up what I already have. Damn, I'm too competitive. shit. omg. feeling real bad now. I really hate my competitiveness cause sometimes I'm WAYYYYYYYY competitive. A trait of being a Capricorn I guess.

I'm still damn buey song that she got in even though I don't really know her. But losing to her is a SOREEEEEEEEEE wound. shit.