Thursday, August 27, 2009 , 8/27/2009 07:43:00 PM

I give up. I honestly give up. No matter what I do, no matter how hard i ever try, no one ever sees it, never appreciates it and I am never good enough. There is always someone there, just when I thought I reached the peak, to push me off the peak and point at me, laughing at me. That hurts like hell.

No one understands, this insecurity and bitterness I'm feeling. My life is honestly very, very screwed. I don't seem to have any good qualities. I'm not smart enough. I'm not good at all in doing that, and I'm really sick and tired of people telling me"aiya never mind one larh". It hurts, seriously, when you were once at the top, but someone just snatched it from, earning you snickers and hidden glee from others who love nothing besides watching you fall. Well, I hope you're HAPPY enough okay, to see me in such pathetic state. HA.HA.HA.

Inferior. Useless. Meaningless. Empty. Heavy.

My life sucks and I guess I suck too.
I give up. Cause no matter how hard I try, there is always twists and turns, always deterring me from getting what I want. I can no longer feel the security and warmth in there anymore. Cause what's one of the most important to me is already gone. And I hope you laugh til you choke, you bastard who is so petty and get over your stupid ego and jealousy. that happened more than a year ago and it isn't my fault in the first place.