Incipient

I really tried to give our friendship another shot but everytime I picked up my phone and about to type a sms to you, or even take up a pen to write a letter to you, I always put my phone/pen down eventually. There's... something that's holding back me and I can't identify it.

You mattered to me most once, even more than my band friends, the bond I have with the band, my 2D friends.. but it's just that..our friendship is stagnant. It's like you're on the MRT train, and in front of you are flashes of old shophouses (through Aljunied&Kallang), or people playing football or people cycling through the streets, or people dining at roadside stalls but you're speeding past them, and these nostalgic images just passed as quickly as it appeared.

It's the same thing, to me, to you, to our friendship. We're on the MRT train, and no matter how reluctant we are to let our friendship be status quo, time and the world is always evolving, pushing us forward into the fast-paced world, whereas our friendship are those images. They're nostalgic, no doubt, but they can never catch up with the MRT train, with life. That's why they're nostalgic, memories.

I won't deny that even the smallest details of my life has your name written all over it. Whenever I listened to "Love Song", I would think of you, performing and singing on the keyboard/piano. It has always been my favourite song of you singing. You really do have a great voice and a considerable good amount of musical talent. But the point is, these are already memories. Good memories of my past.

In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit.
Albert Schweitzer

You once rekindled my inner fire, but time somehow put it out, and caused our friendship to be stagnant. As I think about it now, frankly, our friendship just sort of died by itself, and it's none of our fault. We both did try to salvage this friendship, even if we didn't notice the other party trying, but the efforts were in vain. As what I have told KarMei before, maybe our frienship still have a chance, maybe it can still survive, but only time will tell. After all, lots of things happened due to time. It can harm, hurt us yet heal and benefit us.

"A friendship can weather most things and thrive in thin soil; but it needs a little mulch of letters and phone calls and small, silly presents every so often - just to save it from drying out completely."
Pam Brown

Maybe, just maybe. Time will all tell.

"If it's very painful for you to criticize your friends - you're safe in doing it. But if you take the slightest pleasure in it, that's the time to hold your tongue."
Alice Duer Miller

"Contempt is the weapon of the weak and a defense against one's own despised and unwanted feelings."
Alice Duer Miller